Yesterday, was my 48th birthday. It’s hard to believe when I type that or think that I’m 48. I’m not sure why. I’m sure my mother can’t believe it either. Her birthday is 2 days after mine which would be tomorrow as of writing this blog.

Birthday celebrations were not a big thing for me growing up. I have two half sisters, whom I have no contact with anymore, that lived with their mother. I was an only kid and I didn’t have a lot of friends. The birthday celebrations for me opening gifts and maybe having a cake. We didn’t get together with my uncles, grandparents, or other family members. Very exciting childhood huh?

With my wife’s family that’s a different story. Her sisters and their families get together several times throughout the year to celebrate birthdays along with other milestone events. I often feel socially awkward at those events because I’m shy socially to start with and I didn’t have a big family growing up.

As I reflect on the past 48 years, I feel like I really haven’t lived life to the fullest. The past 48 years are filled with a variety of emotions. There were opportunities that I missed, things I regret, and things that have made me happy.

In looking ahead, the grim reality of getting older and prioritizing my health has become number one. My father passed away at 59. My uncle passed away at 58. My paternal grandparents didn’t live much past 60 as I recall. That’s scary to me. Will I be gone in 10 years? I feel if I don’t change things then I may not be but I can’t control that.

What I can control is being a good father and ensuring my kids are successful in life. I don’t want them to make the same mistakes I’ve made. I’m thankful they aren’t as naive as I was at their age. They are so smart but still have much to learn.

As for celebrating my birthday yesterday, it was very low key. That’s ok with me. I was able to celebrate with my wife and kids. I got an acoustic guitar and Denver Broncos football jersey. I’m happy. We ended the day eating ice cream cake.

Here’s to many more trips around the sun…